~Baby Race and Boudoir Photos~

I was surfing on the internet tonight and discovered that Hilary Duff is pregnant. I had to think “am I really that old that Hilary Duff has beaten me to the coveted baby mama status”?! The answer to that question would be yes. I can clearly remember babysitting one girl who was obsessed with Lizzy Maguire (a show similar in nature to Hannah Montana in which Duff starred in) that aired about 10 years ago. Time sure flies by and before you know it Hilary Duff is knocked up before you are! ;)

Once again, I haven’t been on here in forever! I have been so busy with work and most nights I end up watching some form of trashy TV or going out with a friend. This however has served as a needed distraction. So, although I have missed blogging it has been good to come and go as needed. I have no idea what is going on with you and I really wish I did. I miss the internet community!

I started my birth control pill last Friday; it was taken with mixed feelings. It feels super counter productive to me. I know that it is necessary but it just feels odd, ya know what I mean? Since I started my BC pills you guessed it, we are cycling in November, WOOT WOOT! It seems surreal. I received all my medication, paid the fertility clinic and am now sitting and waiting. I don’t have all the dates but I am sure I will be blogging about everything along the way. I would love for you to join me on this journey; I am going to need all the support I can get!

As some of you may know the Dude is a photographer. A few weekends ago he held a boudoir marathon for some of his clients. Personally I have always thought of doing boudoir photos for the Dude but never really went ahead with it because I am no size 4.

In the past when I would look at the girls the Dude has photographed I would feel a twinge of jealously because let’s just face it…my ass has never been that smooth! My life has changed a lot; even though I am bigger I still have a lot of self confidence. I decided to go ahead and do it just for me.

When it came time to shoot the photos I was still feeling self conscious but I quickly loosened up and before you know it I was having a lot of FUN! I had a great time posing and joking around with the Dude. I am glad I did it. It made me feel sexy and beautiful. Infertility has a way of ripping those two feelings right away from you.

I convinced the Dude to give me one photo to post on my blog (he has a strict policy that NO ONE looks at photos before they are finished) so this was actually kind of a big deal! You bloggies will be the first people to see a photo from my shoot! If you are feeling self conscious this is a fantastic confidence booster and I had a wonderful time. I would highly recommend it to anyone!!

Here goes nothing…

You can go check out the Dude's site here! What do you think?!

I also wanted to give a shout out to a sweet girl named Emily. A few weeks ago she sent me the kindest email. I was so thankful and touched by her words. To my knowledge she doesn’t have a blog so I cannot direct you there to share in her kindness.

I love people like Emily – “girl, you make the world a better place!”

Well that’s my life in a nutshell, today anyways.

Love to you…