We survived the transfer and are now 4dp5dt (4 days past a 5 day transfer). It is an exciting time for the Dude and I as we allow ourselves to dream…just a little. We transferred one perfect looking Blastocyst to its home. Here’s to hoping the little fellar sticks around for awhile!
I decided not to post during the growth of the embryos because everything just felt so up and down. One day they would be growing well and the next day a little slower. The doctor changed the number of how many we would end up with everyday. It was stressful waiting for the phone call to hear whether the little ones had made it overnight. One day the Dude even LIED to me because he felt it would upset me unnecessarily. He would be right because at that point the doctor had no good news to share – thanks Dude!
Here is what happened…
• 20 eggs retrieved - only 10 are mature enough to fertilize
• All 10 fertilize (YAY)
• All 10 are growing, 4 are at a above normal pace (This continues up until transfer)
• Day 5 we have 4 Blastocysts and 6 other embryos which were either not strong enough or would have had abnormalities (rest in peace little ones)
• Transfer 1 blast and now have 3 ice babies residing in Calgary!
• The dude and I were joking and laughing with each other all the way to transfer! YAY!
You would think right now I would be in this euphoric state of happiness but the truth is the 2 week wait is dreadful! Infertility makes you feel like you are always going to be let down and here I am thinking about just that. It is hard to imagine after so many trials actually receiving good news.
I am trying to keep a positive attitude and with no help from the hormones coursing through my body. With my emotions wildly out of control I decided to take a few extra days off this week to rest and relax. Although sometimes the extra time off has felt counter productive because you sit there and analyze every twinge and feeling to the max.
Test day is on December 10 and I can hardly wait. I want this more than anything! Please, please let this be positive!
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That looks like the perfect embie! I hope your 2ww goes very quickly!
That is a beautiful little one. Just perfect.
Time will go faster than you think :)
totally get it. totally get the two week wait. it's sooooooo hard NOT to get hopes up... yet you don't WANT to.
Anyways, i am praying praying PLEASE PLESAE PLEASE positive results for December 10th. Please oh please oh please.
Praying for this little one to get bigger and bigger and bigger!
Fiona
Woohoo!
that is one beautiful blastocyst :) I when I saw mine on the big screen TV in the operating room...so much potential, so much hope in this tiny little cell...it was very moving. I won't ask about your choice to have a single embryo transfer but just in case it was something that worried you, I want you to know that I only had one-and none to freeze :(--and she's now napping in her playpen next to me :D
Sending lots of sticky dust your way and can't wait to hear about your news on dec 10.
Try not to go crazy with all your feelings...drink LOTS of water and know that Canadians rock ;)
The clinic pretty much made the chose for us.
Since I am 27 they said that putting in more than one blast did not increase my chances of a pregnancy but increased my chance for multiples.
It felt like a good decision because we only want a singleton. Not that we wouldn't take two if they were in there but I think one is going to be a big adjustment as it is. ;)
I was scared I would have none to freeze so I am thankful that we will have at least a couple of shots at it.
My friend only had one to put back in and she is expecting her little bundle in February! Little miracles for you guys!
I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! I think about and hope and pray for you every day! DIG IN LITTLE ONE!
December 10 is my beta day as well! I H*A*T*E the beta wait. It's the worst. Especially after a fresh cycle (as opposed to an FET I mean) because you have been in daily contact with your clinic and then very suddenly it all stops and you are left with nothing to do but think. And google. And compare your cycle to other peoples (or in my case, my past cycles). And symptom-analyze. One minute you feel optimistic and hopeful, and in a split second you can crash down to being "sure" the cycle didn't work. Stay away from google! Rest up as much as possible and don't lift anything heavy. Here's a friend's list of how to keep your mind off the 2ww=
http://brittneymills.blogspot.com/2009/09/tips-to-survive-2ww.html.
If you don't have an invite to my blog just click my profile link and it will be self-explanatory about how to get one. I would love to suffer through the 2ww with you ;) [That sounds awful in a friendly way, doesn't it?]
Your blast seriously looks A-MAZING, btw. Really good cell formation and everything. I'm no embryologist but having been through five embryo transfers myself and also seeing other ladies' embryo pics, that blast looks great! :) Also congrats on the three freezer embies.
Nice looking blast! Enjoy the bed rest. Hopefully the holiday preparations can keep you occupied during the 2WW. Wishing you the best for a BFP!!!
Praying for you Becky that this perfect little em-baby STICKS!!
Beckie, your post made me so emotional - it sounds like everything is going so well. What a perfect little emby!? I will pray very hard for you and am sending strengthening thoughts to you over the oceans from Australia! Xxxx Bron
SO VERY EXCITING! I hope you are having a restful weekend and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. We will be just a few weeks pregnant from each other bc this WILL work for us! :)
So exciting:) Praying this works out for you!! What a wonderful Christmas present that would be!!
Thinking and praying that this little emby sticks and stays! What a wonderful xmas present it will be.
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